27. After the Storm

She doesn’t sit up.

“They figured out Clarke needs more sedatives,” she mumbles flatly when Lye enters her room.

He pulls her glasses out of his pocket. The left lens is missing. “They should have you a new pair by the end of the week.” He places them on the pillow beside her head.

Miranda’s fingers curl around the hem of his shirt. “Thank you,” she murmurs.

He sits on the bed beside her and runs a hand through her hair. “It’s growing back,” he says lightly.

She doesn’t answer.

He brushes her hair until she cries herself to sleep.


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26. Post-Breakfast Pill Distribution

“I don’t have all day,” snaps the Orderly.

She turns the cup slowly, buying time. Clarke won’t let her lift her arm. He doesn’t want the pills. She doesn’t know what to do.

“Miranda,” Lye says it like a warning.

Shou looks nervously between Miranda and the impatient Orderly.

Her hand shakes, Her grip tightens. Clarke hasn’t been loose in days. He’s mad.

“Please,” she whispers.

“Is this going to be another situation?”

She drops the cup.

Lye has just enough time to gather Shou behind his back before Clarke throws himself at the orderly with a howl of rage.


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25. Miranda and Dr. Smith: Rematch

“How are you adjusting?”

She refuses to answer until he stops writing.

He repeats the question.

He looks up. “Miranda?”

Victory! “No negative side-effects, but I don’t think it’s working.” Clarke inches forward in her mind. She shoves him back. Not now.

The doctor scribbles. Clarke thinks he looks soft and breakable. Miranda bites the inside of their cheek.

“We’ll up your dosage. These things take time.”

Clarke wants to hurt him. Miranda’s control is slipping. “I feel sick. I want to lie down.”

Dr. Smith says, “What do you mean?” into his legal pad.

“Cramps.”

He dismisses her early.


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24. Penpals

Clarke,

I appreciate your compliance this week, especially in public. I realize you’re anxious to let off some steam, but I’m going to need you to stand by a bit longer. Shou is still tagging along, despite several pointed hints that he wasn’t wanted. I’d rather not introduce you.

—Miranda

Floors creak all night. It’s annoying. —C

Clarke,

I can’t believe you of all people are spooked by this place. It’s an old building. It’s just settling. Try to ignore it.

We’ve got an evaluation with Dr. Smith tomorrow, so I’ll need full control.

—Miranda

When are we leaving? —C


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23. Lye’s Best Advice

“I don’t like him.” She folds her arms across her chest.

“And why not?” Lye asks.

She answers without hesitation. “He’s a liar.” 

Lye raises one eyebrow. “Miranda Elizabeth, we are eating dinner with him. I want no more of your sass. That’s final.”

“If Clarke comes out,” she trails off. Clarke likes to come out when she was angry or nervous; he gets away with more. A lifetime of managing him has left her wary of conflict. She doesn’t want to hurt anyone, despite her temper.

Lye places a hand on her head. “It’ll be ok. It’s only dinner.”


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22. Shou Meets Lye

Miranda’s tour of the hospital is gestures in different directions and a rapid-fire rundown of the rules.

“Well, that’s it.”

He gapes. They are still in front of his room. “Wha—”

“Good luck.” She walks away.

Because he doesn’t know what else to do, he follows her.

She glares at him over her shoulder but doesn’t say he can’t.

In the courtyard, she sidles up to a tall man with bad posture. The man’s drooping blue eyes gaze thoughtfully down at Shou. He looks between Shou and Miranda. His lips quirk. “Why hello,” he drawls, “and who might you be?”


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21. Shou is Unimpressed

She introduces herself and holds out a hand for him to shake.

“Shou Yoshida,” he replies and stares at the hand. Didn’t the doctor tell her? When her eyes narrow and her hand stays aggressively jutting into his space, he shoves his fists into his pockets. “I don’t like touching people.”

He winces.

She considers the tic. “Tourettes?”

He nods.

“What are those scars from?” She points at the shiny skin on the underside of his arm.

“I hurt-t-t-t myself.” The lie is easier every time but the stutter isn’t. 

“Looks like an animal attack.”

He winces and looks away.


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